Alexander' is the pseudonym used for a homosexual man who was born on October 17, 1899. In the edited version of his diaries, Jeb
and Dash, first published in 1993, Jeb's niece and editor of his diaries, Ina Russell, shares Jeb's window on
gay life in Washington, DC in the early half of the twentieth century, spanning the years 1918 – 1945. The published
version of his diaries was hailed by some in the gay community as a historic look at gay culture during a time from which
little such similar documentation exists.
According to Russell's Introduction to the edited diaries, in April 1962, Jeb wrote, "At last I wrote my letter
to Ina…about the diaries, asking her advice, and urged her please to answer soon." Ina continues, "On May
14, he [Jeb] received my reply. He wrote, "Ina's looked for letter at last came and it made me quite happy. It was
exactly what I had hoped for, the answer I had wanted to receive from her. She was not sure that I had it in mind to leave
her the diary, so she begged me to do so."
Later in her Introduction, Ina includes the following entry from Jeb dated
14 April 1923, who lends his perspective on the sharing of his diaries:
It occurred to me today with something of a shock how
horrible it would be for this diary of mine to be pawed over and read unsympathetically after I am dead, by those incapable
of understanding, who would be filled with disgust and astonishment and think of me as a poor demented wretch, a neurotic
or a madman who was better off dead. And then the thought of the one thing even more dreadful and terrible than that—for
my diary never to be read by the one person who would or could understand.
For I do want my diary to be read—there
is no use in concealing the fact—by somebody who is like me, who would understand. 
Jeb was a collector of personal and published
diaries, and this may have contributed to his understanding that his diaries had meaning beyond himself. So even at the age
of 23, Jeb knew that he wanted to share his diaries, though it was not made clear to the reader what he had in mind for accomplishing
this, not even when he wrote to Ina concerning the matter years later in 1962. Russell herself seems not to be sure when she
writes that "Perhaps he left his diaries to me as an act of faith between lovers of literature." For my
part, I had to wonder if perhaps Jeb had acted selfishly by imposing this task upon Ina, conveying his unspoken faith in her
that she would somehow see him and his diaries through to fruition, whatever form that might take. No matter the case, if
it was an act of faith that led Jeb to entrust his diaries to Ina, then it seems to me that it was an act of unselfish love
on Ina's part to accomplish what she did for Jeb, not to mention for the others like him 'who would understand.'
however, after first reading Jeb and Dash, shortly after it was published, I immediately became convinced that
while Ina had managed to tell 'a' story she had not told 'Jeb's' story. By failing to append his true
name to what amounts to his life-long body of work, she failed to make it his own. This point is particularly poignant because
it was Jeb's lifelong desire to be a published author, according to published diary entries and Ina's own account.
Unfortunately, Jeb's entries and Ina's Introduction reveals to us a man who instead succumbs to writer's block
or inertia. Ina seems to understand the weightiness of this when she writes: "If we lived in Kafka country, everyone
who aspired to lead a creative life and does not would be required to read the whole of Jeb's diaries, and then would
have to appear in a silent courtroom before a faceless judge who would ask: Do you understand? Do you know what will
happen if you do not use your talent? And none would escape by saying, But was it not enough that in my life I fell tragically
in love?" The reference to 'tragically in love' referring to Jeb's one-time lover and long-time
friend, pseudonymously presented as C.C. Dasham (Dash) in the edited diaries.
Ina had the opportunity to give Jeb in
death the one thing he could not accomplish for himself in life – the chance to be a published book author. That's
not to say that I deny what must have been the absolute monumental task of editing the expansive diaries into a single account,
and the importance of what Ina shared through Jeb from a gay historical perspective. In this sense, she and Jeb did this together.
He supplied the raw material, and she shaped it and made it available to those 'who would understand.' What this observer
could not understand, however, is why Ina failed to make Jeb's story his own. By using a pseudonym to represent her uncle,
Ina denies Jeb his last chance to be a 'great author,' as Jeb once said of his own desires for himself
– well, at the very least, his own author.
Her actions seemed strange to me, considering that Ina
had opted to include in the book some photographs of Jeb and his family, and even one of Jeb and Dash together, prominently
displayed on the book cover. Part of her reluctance to spell 'Jeb' out, apparently, had to do with the practice of
'outing' (i.e., publicly revealing that someone was gay or lesbian against his or her will) that was in wide debate
at the time Ina published Jeb and Dash. And, in fact, Ina states in her Introduction, "I used pseudonyms
for most private individuals because some people from Jeb's diaries may still be living, and certainly most of them have
living relatives. It was not my desire to bring anyone out of the closet without his knowledge or permission." The
question nagged: Why then did she choose to share the photographs in the book if she was concerned that certain disclosures
would embarrass or distress living persons or their immediate descendants? Certainly, members of Dash's extended family
would likely recognize his photograph adorning the book jacket, and the same could be said of Jeb's relatives. Even according
to her own pronouncement, she did not know whether Dash was still living at the time of publication. Yet, not knowing, she
still chose to publish the edited diaries with Dash's picture on the dust jacket, alongside Jeb. As it turned out, Dash
had been deceased for some years, but she did not know that at the time. The act of disclosing the photo of Jeb and Dash together
on the jacket cover, then, can be interpreted as having outed them to their extended family lineages. And, in the case of
Dash, since Ina did not know if he was living, potentially bringing him out of the closet without his permission, period.
But the fact
is, from the time of Jeb's death in 1965, it would take Ina until 1993 to edit and have published his diaries, some 28
years later. In that time, almost all the major players in Jeb's text who might have been outed had long since deceased.
And certainly Ina, with their real identities at hand, might have been able to deduce this through some background checking,
which she indeed later did with the help of a librarian who volunteered to do so, post-publication.  But as for Ina's
desire to apparently spare the 'living relatives' any embarrassment by having it publicly disclosed that they were
related to a gay person, I find that argument without merit. Jeb and the others did the hard part – they lived it. And
in a much less socially tolerable - and indeed sometimes hostile - time than homosexuals enjoy today. Now these souls are
gone, and it seems certain that their relatives would have survived the telling of their stories. As one lesbian archivist
put it, "while individual privacy and confidentiality may be of paramount concern while the individual lives, a full
disclosure of deceased individuals' history can do little harm and yet add so much to the lives of others."
It has to be
said, though, that without Ina, Jeb's legacy would have never been realized at all. And in the end, one might suppose
that Ina is as much a product of her socialization as anyone, concerning attitudes and mores regarding sexuality, which seems
evident when she writes: "Soon after I completed this project [Jeb and Dash] I shopped for a gift in a men's
store, and while my purchase was being wrapped I wandered around, browsing, and found myself wondering, Which sweater
would I like best if I were a gay man?" The answer to her question is most likely 'the same
sweater that any number of men might like.' Granted, it cannot be denied that the modern gay stereotype
has its basis of origin in some historical evidence. But with the continuing evolution of the gay movement, homosexual men,
other than those represented by 'that' stereotypical image, have emerged in full public view, perhaps helping to assuage
that image as the only accepted norm for all gay men. Perceptions can change over time, clearing a path for acceptance of
homosexuals by even disapproving family members, as society at large becomes less disapproving toward gay men and lesbians.
Despite whatever misgivings I may have had about Ina's handling of Jeb's diaries, the truth is that it is precisely
the way she chose to shroud their contents in such secrecy that has generated energy surrounding the diaries. It's easy, too
easy, to sit in judgment of Ina's loving gift to her uncle, and to those who might understand, by those who had no
familial connection to Jeb and who did not accomplish the unwieldy undertaking that she did.
I ponder that Jeb would be thrilled
to know that his diaries will eventually reside in the Library of Congress, that his edited diaries have been dramatized as
a screenplay, and that there are other people, just like myself who have been riveted by his story, seeking to learn something
about themselves through the lives of Jeb and Dash. In all actuality, Ina's telling of Jeb's story has generated a
whole second life for him and his diaries. And when all is said and done, I think Jeb made exactly the
right choice in entrusting his diaries to Ina. Thank you, Ina.
 Ina Russell, ed., Jeb and Dash: Diary Of A Gay
Life, 1918 – 1945 (Boston: Faber and Faber, 1993), 5.  Russell, ed., Jeb and Dash, 8.  Russell, ed., Jeb and Dash, 5.  Russell, ed., Jeb and Dash, 6.  Russell, ed., Jeb and Dash, 5. Judith Schwarz, “The archivists balancing act: Helping researchers while protecting individual
privacy,” The Journal of American History, June 1992, 179 -89.  Ina Russell, ed.,
Jeb and Dash, 6.